Fried Green Tomatoes

Right now, I'm watching this movie called Fried Green Tomatoes! It sounds wack but it's an AMAZING movie and I love it alot! I just watched re-watched the beginning for the 2nd time tonight because I missed most of it while writing the last post :P I know I'm still, writing, but I'm paying more attention this time lol.

Anyways,

Idgie, one of the main characters becomes pretty much best friends with her late brother's girl friend. I mean, they were the best of friends! The age difference stood out to me because from the looks of it, it looks like the age difference between Blanket and I :)

In the beginning Idgie is about 9 and Ruth is about 16 when Buddy (Idgie's brother dies).

And even though the two girls don't become great friends until they're a little bit older, it still happens.

I bet Blanket and I could be great friends!! I fantasize about it all the time<3 Him and I at the park, me taking pictures of him being silly in the beautiful sunlight, just giggling up a storm :) It could happen...

Speaking of the little munchkin, he's official 9 years old today<33 I hope he had a fabulous time at his party yesterday <33

J'adore, Michaela Blankets

There's a girl by the name of Michaela Blankets* and a while ago, I discovered the fact that she has/had a small crush on Prince-Michael. You think i'd get upset and protective, (kinda like how I am about Niki) but to be honest, I admire Michaela, and I wish she was the one dating Prince. I have a feeling that she and her family are the only ones at Buckley who truly appreciate and feel honored by the fact that they get to attend school with MJ's kids. Her little brother Isaac, who I also adore, looks up to Michael just as much as I do, and he even dresses up and dances like him.

Isaac Blankets* , aka little MJ. He was even  featured in Michael's latest video<3

Unfortunately for her, I don't think Prince finds her attractive. He claims that she follows him around (which she probably does, cause I would) and he says he finds it annoying.

But Michaela is a cool girl.

She even stayed the night at Hayvenhurst with Paris :) Plus, her brother had a playdate with Blanket!...

Please don't ask me how I know all of this because it will only take away from the point that I'm trying to make...

Michaela is doing exactly what I would be doing if I were in her shoes. She's living the life that I'd love to have, and she even reminds me a bit of myself. I love that girl for that! I wish that we could be friends, and maybe someday we will be!

Paris sure would benefit more from hanging out with Michaela than she's getting with Emma Duff*, probably learning how to kiss guys and take nude pics or something...smh!

Michael, please watch over your daughter. I'm afraid she might be going down the wrong path... :(

Michaela Blankets* , she's so beautiful! No homo! 

*Last names changed for privacy reasons.

It's Not as Bad as It Looks

I've been through a lot of things in my 16 years of living. Including the death of 2 fathers AND a father-like figure (MJ), a Mother with a life threatening disease, being teased, low self esteem, being expelled for a minor infraction, being arrested for drug possession, changing schools over 5 times, moving over and over, and the list goes on and on........

BUT

Right now, things aren't as bad as they could be. The only real issue I have now is that I'm not in school which leaves me at home, ALONE, with my thoughts, and obsessions, all day. That's never good for someone with such a great mind like me. It often makes me feel like I'm going crazy. Being alone, with nothing to do all day also gives me TOO MUCH TIME to cyberstalk the people I wish I could be with. This is what makes me think that they have become my WORLD.

Hopefully, my life will take a turn for the better next fall when I go back to school for the...what...3rd time? lol But I'm not bitching out this time. It's not worth it, man. It's just not worth it.

There's so much life out there and I hate missing out on it.

I'm Back

Sorry for being M.I.A for the past few weeks. In all honestly, I was planning on deleting this blog. I actually came here today for that purpose...but then I read my old posts and I knew I couldn't let them go to waste. Something in my soul tells me that once I'm past this depressed stage in my life, someone just like me is going to experience it as well, and my words could definatley help them out, even if it's just to make them feel like they're not the only one going through this.

Lately, I've been doing...fair....

Smoking A LOT of weed, but I'm not saying that as a bad thing. Of course, I hate feeling like I'm dependent on it, I hate knowing my it disappoints my Mom, and I hate knowing that even though it's just a plant, it's ILLEGAL (which is breaking the laws of the land). But....it's not as bad as heroin. Hell, it's not even as bad as alcohol in my opinion.

I read a Dave Chappelle quote on Tumblr the other day that made so much sense! It was about how weed brings people together! And you're right! Especially with the youth of today. Alcohol doesn't do that.